Confession

Class of 2004,Awarded with Best short Story: (few paras)

Out of sudden, I heard a voice, little shrill but sweet, deafening loud but lighter to heart, even though I had not looked at her, but immediately I knew it’s going to be something big, atleast for me.

My being of desolated soul immediately struck with heavier sense of frisson, what else could be it, when i saw her from the crowd, with her friends, smiling, playing her restless soul immediately made me fall in love.

A strangest kind of feeling with hallucination, once you are in captive of this strange more powerful then opium, you start to deprive from real world and start to construct your own parallel universe. It still enchants me with most powerful of all. Though the art of love was new for me but not impossible, still thinking of those uneasy awkward moments of fabricating your own world where you are with your beloved. It’s odd that how a feeling of being loved can make a person what he didn't even thought of be ever.

Just a look had made me dispose off my gods, and ended me blasphemous when with each recitation of prose of Rumi, i just thought of her. Nothing else could make me more annulled from my life then Her. Each song possessed her being; I could dance forever, could die and make a good friend of her in my parallel universe. Sometimes imaginative talks with her make me loosen up from reality itself, and finally all those storm up feelings pushed me off the cliff, I realized one morning that I haven’t slept for a month, and didn’t even knew what I have been doing all nights, imagining, writing making up stories, playing games, but not even a second she was off my mind. Her powerful soul had made me nothing but shook me from my very soul to look differently at world, where possibilities seem boundless. A fallen star roamed universe in hope that it could land on its planet with intensity that it will then never let it go again. But what of the love I have been saying this far?, With all the feelings it makes us more vulnerable and strong in soul. May be I have exaggerated all my feelings and start to over think, made me obsessed about her, may be a powerful infatuation that pulls me at her.

I abstained, with insomnia I could have done something better, i started meditation, with long hours of concentration at one point, my thoughts started to diminish, day by day ripples of thoughts decreased, and one point in those days I can surely say that i have experienced something powerful, it was all silence, a silence you have never imagined, for few seconds, it made my all body disappear from my mind, I knew nothing, not even what I am doing and what I have done, and after few seconds I recollect I was seeing “Her”.